For Whom the Bell Tolls
not for thee—but for me
For Whom the Bell Tolls
not for thee—but for me
By Victoria (Tori Sparks) Sylvestre
By Victoria (Tori Sparks) Sylvestre
The knob turns.
Paper balls fly.
I sit in grayscale,
head in hands,
surrounded by chaos and
spinning time.
The knob turns.
Paper balls fly.
I sit in grayscale,
head in hands,
surrounded by chaos and
spinning time.
I am the teacher.
The one with the glitter and the grit.
The sequins and the soul.
But at that moment—
I was unraveling.
I am the teacher.
The one with the glitter and the grit.
The sequins and the soul.
But at that moment—
I was unraveling.
Then,
a bell.
Larger than life.
Rocking in a tower on six glowing screens.
It tolls—not for thee,
but for me.
Then,
a bell.
Larger than life.
Rocking in a tower on six glowing screens.
It tolls—not for thee,
but for me.
And I run.
And I run.
Coat flying,
feet pounding through the hallway.
This is not flight.
This is return.
I pour the coffee.
I open the app.
The music softens,
the colors bloom,
and the grayscale lifts.
Coat flying,
feet pounding through the hallway.
This is not flight.
This is return.
I pour the coffee.
I open the app.
The music softens,
the colors bloom,
and the grayscale lifts.
Frame by frame,
I find myself again.
Frame by frame,
I find myself again.
Back in the classroom,
my students greet me with joy.
There are fist bumps.
There is a hug.
There is me—present, restored.
Back in the classroom,
my students greet me with joy.
There are fist bumps.
There is a hug.
There is me—present, restored.
And at the end—
a cat.
Cuddly. Content.
His tiny face lit with peace
as I curl on the couch,
held by the world I rebuilt.
And at the end—
a cat.
Cuddly. Content.
His tiny face lit with peace
as I curl on the couch,
held by the world I rebuilt.
Fifty hours of creation.
One video.
All of me.
Fifty hours of creation.
One video.
All of me.
I have always modeled creativity—
in my voice,
my wardrobe,
my snacks,
my structure.
I have always modeled creativity—
in my voice,
my wardrobe,
my snacks,
my structure.
But this time—
I designed an experience.
And I was transformed, too.
But this time—
I designed an experience.
And I was transformed, too.
The bell tolled.
Not for thee.
But for me.
The bell tolled.
Not for thee.
But for me.
And I ran toward it.
And I ran toward it.